It's that time of year again.. PROM!!
This is my daughter this year.. her Senior year.. her last prom ever.... along with her boyfriend.. whom she went to the prom with last year!
This years theme was the 50's... hopelessly devoted... to me.. it seemed like a Grease theme more than anything...

She decided to kick it up a notch this year and go as "Barbie"..


This photo was touched up by my awesome photoshop friend Wendy... the first picture looked like a construction Cone sat on my daughters arm!!

ahhh a Kiss

this is what we call.. "Sassy Barbie" and "Laid back Ken"

This is... "in the box" Pose...

Them being goofy and moving around and making faces..


And a few pictures before "Ken" showed up..

I just can't believe that graduation is right around the corner... and college is sitting right there....
I look in the mirror and wonder if I look the age of a senior in highschool soon to be college student.... and I just wonder.... how many times I blinked while she grew up into a young woman.... This year has just flown by... much faster than I thought.... I'm trying to savor every moment....

A list I found this morning when I woke up... I thought it was too cute!


Psalm 139:13
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.

I became a mother two months after my 18 birthday. When most of my friends were going off to college and obtaining a degree for their future..I held my future in my arms.. I fed my future.. I bathed my future... I listened to my future cry... laugh... even sing... I even sang to my future...

The past 18 years plus.. I've had kids grace through my doorway... and even with Mother's Day yesterday.. I still had three boys here playing that were not "mine"...and that is ok.... because in a few years... those kiddos will have families of their own... and the house full of children will be gone.

For now.. I will continue to measure each child who walks through the door... for some reason.. all kids love to be measured to see who they are taller than.. or whose graced the doorway before them...



Someday when we sell our home... these two doorway moldings will have to come with us... I want to re-do my kitchen this summer.. but these have to stay.. until we move!!!

And just for some giggles.. these are the many children who have graced our doorway in the past 10 plus years.. here at this home....













I think sometimes my husband struggles with the fact that his older brother is now considered a part-time missionary and travels to Ecuador. He feels that his family has put him up on a pedestal and call him the "better" Christian... in truth there is NO GOOD Christian.... claiming to be a Christian means you recognize that you have faults... failure's... and you sin...
What my husband has to remember and I remind him ever so gently.. that we ARE missionary's.. we just don't have to leave our doorsteps and fly half way around the world.. to share God's love, mercy and grace... all we have to do is live by example...we don't have to ask for money.. and we don't have to post our goals on church bulletins or mail our pamphlets... We do this DAILY.. just not one week out of the year....

Even though these children didn't grow under our hearts... God has surely found many opportunities to have them grow in our hearts.. some of these children that have walked through my door have some sad stories to tell...but I'm hoping that each time they have or will walk through the door.. they can lay that sadness at the door and play and be a kid.. and enjoy a few hours of fun and laughter.. and most importantly... a loving home.

I have to keep looking up.. and hopefully I will catch my opportunity when God says it's the right time.

I realize that I haven't blogged for almost a MONTH... and today as I was cruising web-sites and other blogs.. I realized that I've been missing a lot of the blogs that I normally read... really missing them... !!
As most of you know I really try to keep my blog positive... but this past month I haven't felt that way at all.. it seems like one thing after another my heart has fallen into a deep black hole...
I set my eyes on a goal 6 months ago that I thought the Lord really really wanted me to follow... I got excited.. and not once did I ever DOUBT that I wouldn't make it... Until a couple weeks ago my reality was shattered and I didn't accomplish what I thought the Lord wanted me to do.. so I spent some time in anger and sadness and wondering WHY??? Yeah.. I was a plain brat.. and wallowing in my own self pity... I still hurt.. but I'm taking my time and slowly picking myself back up and wiping my pride off of my hurt....

Proverbs 11:2
When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom.

I take this little bit of scripture and daily remind myself... that if you want to make God laugh.. tell Him YOUR plans.. and that's exactly what I did. Part of me truly thought they were HIS.. and they just might be.. but I was rushing something solely based on MY timing. I have NO doubt that God wants me to become something different.. but I KNOW in my heart and mind that I was rushing it because society was telling ME that I wasn't good enough at where I am today. My heart was PROUD.. but not in the PROUD that the Lord calls good.. but almost evil. It's taken a VERY VERY HARD FALL for me to realize this.. it doesn't mean my heart won't become prideful again.. but I will NOT take this kind of situation for granted again...
I acted like I was "owed" this opportunity... and I just might be... BUT.. I will get that opportunity when the Lord opens that door.. and hopefully.. prayerfully .. this time I will KNOW that it's the right time...

So this past month.. I acted like a spoiled brat... and I didn't want to come here and display that to you all.. YES.. I wanted people to feel BAD for me... but then again.. I was deathly sick of hearing... "I'll pray".. "God will let you know".. you see I KNOW all of this...but I wanted more.. and still do... BUT... now I have to sit quietly and wait...

I am happy to say that during this time I got a lot of reading done!! YAY!! And did a small amount of photography.. this being one of the Lily I bought at Easter time!

Hopefully I will come here more and post.. and to read more... I enjoy blogs..and because of my "tantrum".. I neglected myself in reading them...
Today is my 300th post... I hope to continue adding more!! and keeping it positive!!