Each person should judge his own actions and not compare himself with others. Then he can be proud for what he himself has done. Galatians 6:4

Wednesday, April 11, 2007


Ever have one of those days... Today isn't one of those days for me... but lately it does seem like it... ever feel like your touching something....but the doors are closing all around you? I feel like a sitting duck in my job... I'm a contracted out worker for a pharmacy.. so I don't work directly in the pharmacy... however I decided about two years ago I would give full-time a shot in the pharmacy.. It was ok.. TO many LONG hours... 12 hour days and not enough family time and to much politics. So I work contracted out now but get treated extremely poorly from a certain employee and a supervisor.. everyone else seems to be GREAT!! Can I tell you my secret.. I WANT to so desperately write a long letter about these two women anonymously and send it to higher beings in the hospital... oh that is my DREAM!!! But then I read "For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms" Ephesians 6:12 I need to put the Armour of God on... and the Devil is trying to tell me "forget it kid".. You'll lose... My real opponents are not against humans..but the devil.. and to me to think that I can fight this battle by humanly means.. honestly isn't going to get me anywhere.... So as much as I struggle and WANT.. or so desperately WANT to lash out and prove to another HUMAN that this girl is wrong... I must sit back and let the Lord take care of HIS child... HIS problem... not me... I am only the keeper of myself... My true duty in ALL of this.. is to get down on my knees and PRAY... that is the ONLY source of action I am to take... and I must obey... But God.. "why oh why"??? Ü I know what HIS answer will be.. "Because I am in control I am the pilot and you my dear are just the Co... I will listen to your heart.. but you will take final direction from me... "... Tonight.. I know how that child feels with their hand in the cookie jar.... just ONE more cookie!!!

6 comments:

Cris said...

I feel your pain hon...

On another note I love love LOVE your conrner banner...I plan to add one to mine too. :D

Mere said...

((HUGS)) darlin'!! It will be ok...just pray. Beautiful post with scripture!! LOVE IT!!! I'll be prayin' for you!!

~Mere

Missy said...

I'll be praying for you as well, I to am having some struggles I am just going to have to leave to the Lord. Just keep strong and don't let them get to you. Maybe I should take my own advice LOL! God Bless

Lara said...

That is one of the hardest things to deal with. You seem like you have it all together though...even though it's still difficult.

Good luck.

I love your flip flop picture!

Shannon said...

I really admire you for looking beyond the first initial reaction to make sure they learn a lesson. Sometimes the biggest lessons people learn are from the ones they are treating badly- how we react to their ill will sometimes is where God shines his light the brightest..

Shannon said...

I am praying for you!!!!!!